Even their cries were silent.
While even now there is grief for those lost moments with them, more than that there is gratitude.
My darlings, Bryn and Tori,
As I look back on my life, and remember you, I observe what some would see as hardship. I can only call it a blessing. It was an honor to know you, even for the short time we were together. Because of you-- your birth, your life, your death-- I am forever changed. While I prayed that God would save you, heal you, let you live, at least give us more time. . .He, in His infinite wisdom, had a greater plan for you. . . a purpose that we never could have anticipated. You see, someday when we all meet again, I will tell you about the brother you never met. His name is Daniel. He was a little boy far away in another country that needed a family.
Because I loved you, I could also love him.
Then I will tell you about the sister who was on the other side of the world waiting to belong to someone. Her name is Willow. She has been sick her whole life just like you only she went through it all for years without a Mama.
Because I loved you, I could also love her.
We learned we were stronger than we ever thought we could be. . .because you were born. We saw you struggle and learned so much from you. . . because you lived! We have two children in our lives now that we never would have known. . . because you died. We are stronger, wiser, and better people because of you. I can only say thank you. Thank you for teaching me about compassion. Thank you for teaching me how to love.
Loving you until I see your beautiful faces again in Heaven,